I promised it would be before I set out for the pond … the water measuring under fifty degrees. So I tell the friends that I meet as I laboriously layer the neoprene, smear the vaseline on my neck, my cheeks and forehead, This is it.
The struggle into the third layer of gloves, instead of being part of the process, becomes cumbersome. I know I am mentally preparing: Enough Is Enough.
The cold penetrates everywhere within seconds: This is the voice in my head insidious as the cold used to be. It is instant, the moment I am immersed. I am scarcely submerging my face, only enough to blow bubbles and look out along the waterline. Already I feel the outline of my hands inside my three layers of gloves. I focus on the silver path of light across the water which leads toward the dazzling white ball in the sky. And I relax into the rolling rhythm as I sway from side to side. This is what brings me here and I am grateful for this ability I have nurtured. I am soothed into ignorance of the cold just as the audience on the beach is oblivious to me, a black clad figure in amongst the waves.
I doggedly make for Sandy Point, reminiscing about the season and summer rolling into falling into swimming. Remembering how I would glide powerfully toward Ice Fort Cove Point. Now, a point of ice myself, a point in icy water…
Suddenly my stroke changes. I speed up, first by design and then as if swept up by that magic I used to feel. I am captive to it, feeling (though unlikely) like I am zooming across the pond, heading to Ice Fort Cove. My breath snatched out of me by exhilaration. I know I must turn back. The cold…the cold that insidious voice cries. Without losing speed and rhythm I make a wide scoop and head for home.
I thought the wind would help my progress but the water looks amazingly calm and the waves refuse to carry me. This does not disturb me. It, like the man in the blue jacket walking along the shore that I try to keep pace with, is just an observation. My main focus is on the continued rhythm of my arms and breath. Occasionally I look ahead to see if the beach house is really getting any closer. It does not seem to be. I check in with my limbs. My left arm is starting to feel numb.
By the time I near the beach my arm is numb from my fingers to my shoulder but, regardless, I continue to raise it above and pull it down over my head and through the water. I glance behind me to my right to see what I have been missing. The big ball of light in the sky is the spark of a firework: a sparkler spitting and spluttering silver shafts of light.
This is my last view of Walden from water level before I turn and rise up into the sun warmed air.
And I think; If this is the last for the year, it is magnificent…
date of swim: November 25.