An Unscheduled Mid-November Swim

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I felt the outline of my arms, first the left arm and then the right, in its thin nylon shirt. They rose in turn above the water, into the force of the wind, each making a stroke to push my body forward. They were pins and needle cold and nothing seemed to warm them, not the movement, not even letting them fall into the water, warmer than the air… with its wind chill of 30 degrees… Perhaps only the act of not focusing on them, shifting my attention to my thighs instead, feeling the bulk of my quad muscles as they strained to propel me forward: Yet they too were icy cold. The short wetsuit I had borrowed…it did not protect my legs from the fifty-two degree water.

I had not meant to swim that day, but spotting Bill and Jim at the wall as I walked down the ramp and onto the beach, I called out… “Damn it, I knew I should have bought my wetsuit” And Bill replied “Here I have an extra. Borrow mine.” And so I had.

And now I was gliding along the water surface, not even noticing the waves whipped up by the wind, so inexplicably happy to be back in Walden swimming unencumbered by gloves and booties and layers of neoprene. It was as though it were early fall again.
After I took count of the various body parts that were screaming cold at me, my feet, my arms and my legs, I settled into the length of my stroke and the feeling of sliding along the girth of the pond. I watched the sun dance and sparkle on the water to my left and the deserted beach slide by me on my right. I belonged here. It was like coming home again. …But I knew I could not stay.

 

 

I was swimming past the end of Red Cross Beach when I realized the crescendo of voices that made up my neurological choir had quietened and instead had been replaced by some ancient wisdom which began to nag at me. I tried to ignore it but it became more and more insistent each time my arms rose out of the water and fell back into the unfeeling cold again. I knew that wisdom well… And had spent many years ignoring it.
What did prompt me to turn, though, was the realization that I was wearing someone else’s wetsuit, and Bill had been finishing his swim when I was entering the water. He would be changing by now and would be wanting it to take home and here I was feeling like a porpoise dancing among the waves. I turned my nose to the center of the pond and rolled my body in a long slow arc after it until I had done a half circle and was facing the main beach.

Suddenly I found myself surrounded by walls of glistening water and I, cradled between them. They were the purest blue I had even seen and begged to be embraced, or rather that I be embraced by them, so alluring as they rose up around me. Yet I knew I mustn’t succumb to them. As much as I was attempting to swim forward, they seemed to be holding me captive in their midst. I argued fruitlessly with them to let me pass, finding it harder to breathe, as though my lungs were being crushed from the pressure of the cold without. The shoreline was not moving and the beach house not getting any closer. And the feeling of being comfortably cold, confusing.

…But I had been here many times before, and the voice inside my head calming just kept saying ..Keep swimming…Keep on swimming. So I did.

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date of swim: Friday 17 November

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